trying to let go of my constant addiction to be in a big ass calorie deficit bc if I lose slowly I can still reach my gw without all these medical checkups and worrying
my resting heart rate is still around the low 60s, it barely ever dips below 50 at night, my ECGs are perfect, and the only issue was it jumping 34 beats lying to standing there is really no cause for concern here
yeah well maybe I do want my heart to stop overnight because it didn’t even when I was bmi 13.2 so maybe I can just finally die and get this over with now I can never recover
my mum just found all the ensure in my drink bottle how the fuck is she so onto things…so I just went full blown rage and said you can’t make me fucking drink it and I’m not going to die from not drinking ensure, I eat 3 meals and 2 snacks and I’m bmi 16s for fuck’s sake
my mum was watching me like a hawk and my sister was in the bathroom so I took my 1L drink bottle into my room and poured my ensure into that as a last resort😃😃
ok today was a metab day I probably ate around 1700cals, but I’m still gonna be in a -600 to -700 deficit so it’s literally fine😭 I’m supposed to be maintaining bro
my mum needs to calm the fuck down, she got sooo worried because I was at the markets for ‘too long’ and I’m ’medically unstable’ when the only thing is my heart rises a little upon standing😂 I even had a matcha and a small cookie to keep her happy
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gw: 52kg ugw: 48kg
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95 Followers 114 Following18+ only | minors dni
sh talk trigger warning - discretion is advised
sw: 64kg cw: 59.3kg
gw: 52kg ugw: 48kg
153cm
mostly just to vent
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