A lot of people have reached out because of this post. First of all, thank you ❤️ But I do want to clarify that even though some of it might sound scary I don't experience any of this as negative. Quite the contrary. This is a beautiful and eye opening experience. There is so much about myself, what I do and how I think that I've never understood. Past trauma, big and small, influences us in sneaky ways. Most of it comes from a place of fear and vulnerability which the subconscious builds defences around to help us cope. Long after those traumatic events have passed we still live under the rules of those coping mechanisms. In my case almost all of the events happened when I was a kid. And as a kid I didn't have the tools I needed to handle them without creating convoluted structures to help me function. Now, 40 years later those old structures are still there. Influencing, and sometimes dictating, how I live my life. I love and understand the child I was when I created them but I don't need them anymore. To move forward I first have to know what they are, understand where they came from and then I'm hoping I can dismantle them. I'm in the early stages of this process but I'm already seeing massive improvements. I don't know exactly where all of this will lead but I'm certain it's a good place. Most of us have these old traumas living in us. Many of us aren't aware of them. Some of them are big but even those that to our adult eyes can appear small they were big to us as at some point. Don't dismiss them just because they seem like they shouldn't matter anymore. Don't dismiss them because you think other people have bigger issues. Pain is pain and you are allowed to work on yourself and heal. And if you see someone else trying to process past events try to avoid judgment. Just give them love and space. Thank you again for your concern and guidance. I'm doing better than I have in a very, very long time. And I can see a path through this where my freedom lives. I wish you the same.
A lot of people have reached out because of this post. First of all, thank you ❤️ But I do want to clarify that even though some of it might sound scary I don't experience any of this as negative. Quite the contrary. This is a beautiful and eye opening experience. There is so much about myself, what I do and how I think that I've never understood. Past trauma, big and small, influences us in sneaky ways. Most of it comes from a place of fear and vulnerability which the subconscious builds defences around to help us cope. Long after those traumatic events have passed we still live under the rules of those coping mechanisms. In my case almost all of the events happened when I was a kid. And as a kid I didn't have the tools I needed to handle them without creating convoluted structures to help me function. Now, 40 years later those old structures are still there. Influencing, and sometimes dictating, how I live my life. I love and understand the child I was when I created them but I don't need them anymore. To move forward I first have to know what they are, understand where they came from and then I'm hoping I can dismantle them. I'm in the early stages of this process but I'm already seeing massive improvements. I don't know exactly where all of this will lead but I'm certain it's a good place. Most of us have these old traumas living in us. Many of us aren't aware of them. Some of them are big but even those that to our adult eyes can appear small they were big to us as at some point. Don't dismiss them just because they seem like they shouldn't matter anymore. Don't dismiss them because you think other people have bigger issues. Pain is pain and you are allowed to work on yourself and heal. And if you see someone else trying to process past events try to avoid judgment. Just give them love and space. Thank you again for your concern and guidance. I'm doing better than I have in a very, very long time. And I can see a path through this where my freedom lives. I wish you the same.
Diet (simple and home prepared if possible) Sleep (quality sleep) Sunlight (plenty) Helpful: Meat Melatonin D3 PLUS Small talking with warmhearted, caring clever, with a strong dose of sense of humor people Laughter Music Sunsets and Old good movies with values and sentiment. Comedies Pretty sure that a lot inside tightening will melt away. Best wishes 🙏😊
@iamharaldur I first followed you bc you calmly stod up to Elons abuse Then stayed on due to your honest debates on life and personal thoughts and reflections on life You are an outstandingly honest person I'm a little wiser for knowing you Kindest regards J
@iamharaldur you describe a very intuitive approach to your own healing! keep going, you know what you need & how to get it done. the shaking is a nervous system response to fear. my counsellors have said, “Make the shaking bigger,” which helps to physically release the fear response. bravo!
@iamharaldur SSRI cessation is at least part of the cause
@iamharaldur That's exactly how I would describe it, just as I have experienced it over the last year or so. It's tough, gruelling work, but the most important work you'll ever do. I'm happy for you, best of luck for the journey ✨️