A lot of late-IDed Autistic folks have been complimented for much of our lives on our preternatural "self-awareness" when what we *actually* have is a bleakly realistic understanding of how our Autistic traits are negatively perceived by Allistics.
That's not self-awareness. That's self-consciousness. Turns out my actual self-awareness is deeply damaged (gee I wonder why...). But, hey, I can tell you everything that you will dislike about me?? ?
@the_tweedy I was about to say 'blithely realistic' but then remembered it takes about the same effort (and attention to possible errors and offence) to speak Allistic as it does to speak German.
@the_tweedy This also applies to ADHD. Being “just the way you are” would be “too much” for most people. Being able to unmask were you can and feel comfortable feels liberating. But for autistic folks I think there would have to be more external encouragement involved?!?
@the_tweedy Yup. All i know is a fuckton of psychology information and no way to apply it to myself.. And that no matter what, i will be bullied and mocked for displaying my autistic traits. Im *self aware* but not of my own choice