It’s okay if you thought you were over it but it hits you all over again. It’s okay to fall apart even after you thought you had it under control. You are not weak. Healing is messy. There is no timeline for healing.
I don’t know who needs to hear this but...
God has YOUR best interest at heart. His plan is perfect. Things are going to work out- maybe not the way YOU want them to- but BETTER than you planned.
Trust. Have faith. And breathe.