Every couple months I hit an emotional wall with this work and I remind myself that when I feel broken in a way I can’t make sense of it’s because this actually doesn’t make sense. Human beings were NEVER meant to relate to other in the way our criminal legal system forces us to.
We’re meant to be in community. We’re meant to raise each other up. And when it comes to our children, we were meant to love and nurture them. So when we spend all day witnessing the opposite of this and everything feels fundamentally wrong inside it’s because it is.
It’s not that we’re weak or broken for feeling leveled by this and not being able to set it aside. We’re feeling what we’re supposed to in the face of witnessing things that are so at odds with what we’re meant to be doing, what we know we owe one another.
Anyway this time my hitting an emotional wall lined nicely up with a couple days I planned to take off anyway, so I’m going to do that & try to figure out how to get my brain back on track to do this again next week without shoving down or silencing the truth my heart recognizes.
Also every couple of months may sound like a lot for hitting an emotional wall but I assure you it is such an improvement over the “every couple hours” we were working with a few years ago when I started. 😂
@alittleleader we need a juvenile defenders dm or something lol bc it’s hard doing this and even harder to feel like you’re alone