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Collapsed, rebuilt, collapsed, rebuilt.
Life isn't the story we want. It’s what emerges from the events that went against us.
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Day 7 sober.
One full week.
Just seven days ago, my mornings started with alcohol. By night, everything turned into a blur. I had stopped bathing properly, stopped eating properly, and stopped caring about basic things.
Now, my days begin with medicines and the struggle to eat normal meals again.
The anxiety and cravings are still strong. Mood swings hit quickly. I can’t focus for long, and the days feel painfully slow.
I’ve been reminded again: collapse can happen in one moment. Recovery takes days, weeks, sometimes months.
This relapse taught me something important. Loneliness and purposelessness are dangerous for people like me. Unrealistic expectations from myself are dangerous too.
When you keep feeling like you’re failing your own standards, self-destruction slowly starts looking comforting.
I want to genuinely thank everyone who checked on me, encouraged me, gave advice, or simply tried to keep me occupied these past few days. It helped more than you know.
Tomorrow morning, I’m going for a walk again and I’ll restart yoga.
The fight is on.
Still sober tonight.
The reboot continues.
Day 6 sober.
Slept a little better last night. Not properly, but better than the previous few days.
The anxiety is still here, especially in the mornings. I woke up, had tea, and just sat quietly for a long time, doing nothing. My mind still feels slow. Like it’s trying to
There must be a personal red line that we decide never to cross. However, human history is filled with examples of individuals acting against their own stated philosophies. In ordinary circumstances, a person should theoretically never cross the boundaries of the belief system they hold dear.
But no philosophy created by humans is eternal or complete. When the rigid boundaries of a belief system collide with the unpredictable complexities of real life, those boundaries often break. This is not necessarily a failure. It is a catalyst for growth. We must keep exploring, questioning, and redefining our limits. To evolve beyond our own rules is what it truly means to be human.
This can certainly be wrong but this is my own perspective.
I hear you Sarah. I lost my mom on 08th Apr. I am married for 13 years and have three sons. But the way she loved me can't be described. She was my first love. Even today it feels like she is sitting in the next room. It will certainly take time and many collapses to overcome her absence.
I am telling you that I could have died in 2024 due to immense financial losses but she understood what I didn't say and forcibly admitted to a rehab and I tasted sobriety for the first time in 20 years and it went to a 500 sober days.
There is a lot to say but the last thing I would say is Thank You for engaging with me here and giving me strength and hope. Thank you.
It may feel so but any achievement earned is remembered by your mind. Life is a bunch of our foolish decisions and failures. But that should not stop us to try one more time. Those who achieved everything are gone and who didn't achieve anything are gone. Love, company, purpose and honesty. This is all.
@PhilOfLife_ Love should not feel like constant confusion, emotional survival, or begging for basic care.
Real love brings respect, honesty, peace, and support.
You deserve connection that helps you grow,
not attachment that slowly drains you.
@stijnnoorman People stay trapped because learning feels productive without requiring risk.
Action is different.
Action exposes insecurity, failure, inconsistency, and ego.
That’s why transformation rarely comes from more information.
It comes from repeated movement despite resistance.
@readswithravi Stillness is part of creativity.
The mind cannot constantly consume, perform, and produce without eventually becoming dull.
Some ideas only arrive when the noise stops,
and you finally leave space for thought to breathe.
Day 5 sober.
Woke up around 08:00.
Still feeling drowsy.
Had breakfast. Chole and Poori.
Couldn’t eat much though.
Took my medicines.
Had an appointment with the gastroenterologist today but didn’t find the energy to go outside.
Postponed it for tomorrow.
Didn’t feel like doing anything.
No doom scrolling.
No favorite movies or TV shows.
Didn’t even want anyone talking to me.
I was half asleep most of the day.
Thinking nothing.
Just a week ago during the relapse period, I had almost stopped eating completely while drinking from the morning itself.
Now everything tastes salty.
I’m not getting any taste other than salt.
Don’t know if this happens to others too.
Fog is clearing slowly.
Still sober today.
The reboot continues.
Day 4 sober.
Anxiety is running high. Cravings are peaking. Appetite is almost gone.
I went to the hospital today. The doctors increased the dosage of my medicines for a few days and gave me a strict warning: stay completely away from alcohol.
What hurts most is remembering
@99Exclusions I can feel each and every word of you. It's our mind who tricks us into relapsing. It justifies the act so convincingly that we get trapped. However, there should be a red line. No drinking means no drinking at all.
@Nithya_Shrii Because borrowing money creates an invisible tension.
Some people feel gratitude.
Others feel exposed.
So when you ask for it back, they experience accountability as pressure, and react emotionally instead of responsibly.
@ysuckme Most of the time, the right path just looks like showing up again despite doubt, slow results, and exhaustion.
Keep moving.
Quiet consistency changes lives.
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