Feb @SparrowSystem

Shout out to my heart for being like “respectfully I’ve had enough” and dropping my bpm to 50 for a few minutes and fucking me the fuck up before jumping back up to 90-130 range while I’m just trying to mind my own fucking business

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

My darling body is like I think that’s enough standing for the day. And enough sitting upright. Take your head off that pillow it is time to lie completely flat

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

This morning I did a 6k walk with minimal symptoms, by midday I was hobbling around with my cane and after eating dinner I was getting shortness of breath while lying down ~ no matter how many times people tell me I’m just unfit it’s still going to be POTS lmao

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Chronic illness invalidation feel of the day is my Mum saying “you’re sick because the water you drink is too cold” while failing to acknowledge that not-ill people can drink water from a fridge

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Most of the time my parts don’t act like Schema Therapy parts except when we get mildly injured (e.g. stub our toe) and a Little is instantly fronting

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Help my alters keep cooking up elaborate schemes and then I switch in and I’m not clever enough to keep up and I get stressed vs help my alters keep dismantling my elaborate schemes because it stresses them out

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Funny how the parts in me that were good used to be hosts, protectors, ANPs but people just kept hurting them over and over and now they’re internal caretakers, trauma holders, and the parts that are left at the front are cruel and angry

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

They’re like “BPD is a mystery 😔” meanwhile people with BPD are out here making TikToks that capture it perfectly

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Like if I say “favourite person” to someone with BPD, even if they’ve never heard that term before, they know exactly what I mean. I say it to a psychiatrist and I have to explain it for half an hour

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

It’s unbelievable how little mental health professionals grasp BPD when if you go into online communities there are experiences that are so universally recognised that terms like FP have been developed to describe them

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

I was wrong yes punch that guy lmao

Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Maybe we’re lucky or whatever but I find it unrealistic in the United States of Tara that these alters don’t care more about protecting their own

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Maybe we’re lucky or whatever but I find it unrealistic in the United States of Tara that these alters don’t care more about protecting their own

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

Getting tattoos for specific alters is setting a dangerous precedent in a system with at least 30 alters but what am I going to do. Say no?

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

New DID lore dropping on Tiktok I guess. “Switching only refers to a very specific thing or you have to call it shifting” shut up

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Feb @SparrowSystem

4 years ago

I love routines with DID because I can wake up on a bus with no recollection of how I got here but it’s always the same bus route I’m just gonna get off and go to work