Jazalyn Mnemonics @JazalynMemories

I saw weird dreams Of death While at the airport As homeless; I feared they were real Someone tried to choke me In the one; In the other I was melting I fell asleep In the waiting room Which had heat Someone was invisible And others blocked signals In there Jazalyn #poetry

Now I get it Why I saw her in my dream In the airport During my homelessness She now said she admires people Who risk everything To take chances And take on challenges This is what I did Going to the Crossland And the kingdom; Unfortunately I returned Jazalyn #poetry #poem

One day I may come to find you In the cactus land But right now I can't I will come To ask from you The same thing I asked In my continent Will you be able To give it to me This time? I will try not to do the same mistakes; I will remember them Jazalyn #poetry #poem #mystery

Does it matter Where I am? If my mind is somewhere else? This is what is happening to me right now; I can't forget the kingdom I remember what I experienced there And although I was suffering And I was angry I feel nostalgic For the beautiful landscapes Jazalyn #poetry #poem

They render me useless And they believe they do the opposite Reality is always tricky; The same thing is viewed The opposite way I want to leave again But I'll have to wait; I want to continue After a short break The adventure I started last year Jazalyn #poetry #poem #mystery

I don't want But I forget you In this awful county After they force me therapy They destroy me; They make me ordinary; I wish I could escape; But right now I can't I hope I'll escape soon But I'm all out of money And I can't do much Jazalyn #poetry #poem

The only thing I do These days That I wait for some resources In my life Is writing I recall Everything that had happened to me And I simply write it down As fast as I can To not forget it Other times I'm sleepy And what I want to write Gets lost Unless I remember it Jazalyn

I regret Living my life On pills But then I was weak Without any money I had no other choice; I didn't know life To realize It was all a joke I still can't escape from I had sort of escaped The latest years But I got trapped again It is either that Or homeless Jazalyn poetry

Some years ago Someone wanted to marry me And I didn't want He tried to kiss me; He attacked me in the elevator; He tried to enter my apartment forcefully; And he succeeded in it What saved me was some pills I had in my room; You tell them you are crazy And they leave Jazalyn

Days pass slowly Without anything to do; I follow the news; I read articles; I watch videos I found a song from years ago And I felt nostalgic; I wish I was a successful entrepreneur But I'm just a poet And I don't know what else to do As a job; I just can't Jazalyn #poem

I had three bracelets With the words: hope, dream, freedom; I lost the hope one But I hope my hope isn't gone; It was mint I lost many things as homeless In a way that the only explanation Is that a thief magician took them; Dream is pink; Freedom is grey Jazalyn #poetry #poem

I was feeling cold Inside heat; I had been feeling hot Inside cold Are my neuronal mechanical receptors working well? Is this the climate change? Others were wearing light clothes Inside cold Others were wearing heavy clothes Inside heat What's going on? Jazalyn #poetry #poem

Something happened with my voice; It changed; The way I talk changed; I don't know why; But I suspect something Their abuse caused me A kind of speech impairment; Did I have a stroke And I don't know? It passed from two phases; Now it's restored; Was it an implant? Jazalyn

I'm not very disciplined But for specific things I can be Like hunger for example I stopped eating dinner; I cut the white bread; These are small steps Towards diet I force myself My own discipline; It's difficult for me To obey others But if it's needed I obey Jazalyn #poetry

During the procedures to leave Crossland I imagined our dialogue For when we would meet; It was a daydream My dreams also had the figure of you; I never met you But I think I saw you somewhere Or it was just illusion of the mind Do you know me? And how? Jazalyn #poetry #poem

I may have left now After almost 7 months That I was there But I have kept many things to remember Mostly photographs Of newspapers and items; I have a few fossils: Flat oysters & glowing rocks I threw many things That were adding weight; I want to have only one bag Jazalyn

My adventure ended But it may continue again later; This dispirited place I returned Might prove to be The worst of all This bureaucracy This delays This confusion From their part Is playing with my nerves If things don't go as planned I might leave again To migrate Jazalyn

Nothing lasts forever; I went And I left; Maybe I made mistakes; Maybe things happened As they should have happened I had her In mind; That she's somewhere close; And this made me have reactions That I normally don't express; That I usually keep Inside my thoughts Jazalyn #poem

They had big curtains To protect privacy But it was intruded many times By everyone Without properly asking to get in At the start The curtains were cyan But later they changed them Into dark blue They were shaping triangular waves & they seemed to have Sound property Jazalyn

The Chinese Or Korean Or Japanese; Punched me one night She came into my bed And raised her right hand If I didn't have good reflexes I would have been hurt; I protected my left eye With my left hand In soccer & handball games I had played as a goal keeper Jazalyn #poetry