Sunday will be my last day competing in Apex for the foreseeable future. My mental health hasn't been worse in the past 3 years and I just desperately need a break. Competing has been my life for the past 5 years and I'm sure I'll miss it, but right now I need to take a step back recollect myself and move forward. The Competitive viewer base has done a number on making my mental worse, turned my chat into a toxic place and i'm sure has pushed some of my core viewers away. I know i've been a comp player for a long time and am known so its expected to get hate here and there, but it's been over the top lately and I feel many of you forget that I'm human just like you and while results may not be showing as of late, I am trying my best. I will be continuing to stream Apex and stream in general, I want to go back to just playing games and having fun which is something I feel I've lost somewhere along the way. I want to start being more involved with my community, doing sub/viewer clip ratings, maybe some on stream coaching again and possibly host some tournaments for you guys. Idk what the future will hold for me, but i'm ready to find out together with you guys. Much love guys ✌️ PS. Vtuber arc begins in June/July
@TSM_Albralelie Fuck em, you’re giving in to the people that want to see you fail and if you quit you’re making there day. The negative will always stand out more than the positive but you can’t focus on it. Put your head down and grind and bounce back for yourself and nobody else.
@Dezignfull @TSM_Albralelie Fucking with this one
@Dezignfull @TSM_Albralelie I agree with what you are saying but sometimes you need to take a break for yourself just so you can come back even stronger.
I get what you’re saying but when it comes to mental health you actually do need to take a step back in order to get better. You can’t keep yourself in a toxic environment and hope that one day you’ll just be better. The opposite will happen and you’ll snap. Alb is obviously at his breaking point and it would be better for you to encourage the break and show empathy over telling him to grind harder and don’t let people bring him down. You’re coming from a good place and that’s great but this isn’t the speech he needs.
damn @Dezignfull with some inspiring words. Alb you dont know me but im an apex player who overcomes his disability to compete in CC, grind rank and stream everyday. I inspire so many with my perseverance and work ethic. I look up to you as an apex player. i hope my story helps you.
@Dezignfull @TSM_Albralelie Your emotions bring emotions to you. People grav towards it. You have to get your emotions under control before you ever worry about what a feed or everyone else says, otherwise you run the risk of thinking u know best. There is only one safe space, and thats inside your head.
@Dezignfull @TSM_Albralelie Their* at least learn to spell.