What the Heart Wants @_Nordic_Wolf_

I don’t want to have to beg to be loved… but I’m afraid that’s all I’ll ever be worth.

That’s the sad part… I would have fallen head over heels for her if I was blind… it was never about what I could see while looking at her… its what I could see in her, when she talked so passionately.

I hate how easy it is for me to just go numb and allow myself to just not care about someone who just yesterday I would’ve taken a bullet for… but this is my coping mechanism… to protect my heart when they say they don’t feel the same. It is what it is.

I should’ve kept my damn mouth shut… nothing good ever happens from telling someone how you feel.

In a constant war with myself between wanting to feel all the emotions of being alive and wanting to be numb so I don’t have to feel emotional pain.

Theres one woman, she makes me feel some type of way I could not explain if the spirit of Shakespeare himself was moving my lips💚

Yall about to see a different side of me.😂idgaf anymore.

Stuck somewhere between knowing I’m good enough but believing she deserves better.

I fought the demons inside me to crawl my way out of the numbness I put myself in. Now after one bad day I fall back into it. Time to fight again I guess.

It’s hard to believe people when they say you’re worth it, when you can’t see what they do.

I’m going to get my heart hurt again…

Who do you talk to when you’re lonely and your friends don’t pick up? I don’t want to bother them, but the house is getting quiet and the voices are getting loud…

Don’t you ever question my loyalty… but, if you must question my loyalty, just count me out of your life. I don’t have time for those who are unsure of the intentions of those around them.

The ringing in my ears is so loud and I don’t know how to make it stop… constantly needing sound around me to drown it out is a sad existence that I don’t want to have to endure for the rest of my life…

This is the only place I have to be anonymous and let out my thoughts with out someone I care about seeing them. So that is what I’m going to use this account for… my inner thoughts. That’s it. Enjoy.